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my newest obsession: Young Living essential oils

Posted November 17, 2017 by Hillary in life / 0 Comments

If you are like many other book lovers you love candles right? and me? I mean I would buy and still have a gazillion candles. After almost burning down my apartment building one to many time went looking for an alternative. Plus I was also looking for something to help the anti0-anxiety meds work more. I mean I did not have the crippling anxiety that I used to have, but traces of it were still there, and it even affected my everyday life.

A friend had recently gotten into essential oils and urged me to try some. At first, I was all like hahahahaha, but after a LOT of my friends started singing their praises and I did my research and settled on Young Living. I have to confess I saw on Instagram that Dannielle Laporte used Young Living and that sealed the deal for real.  I like their Seed to Seal guarantee, and I had already tried their products and was in love.

I will admit it. At first, I balked at the price of a Premium Starter Kit at 160 dollars but I saw that you get ten oils AND a diffuser I decided to go ahead and purchase one. At the very least my apartment will smell amazing, and I could use the diffuser as a replacement candle. ( I now have the Desert Mist Which has a candlelight setting). I waited, and I got my box and eagerly tore it open. I set up my diffuser and lavender is supposed to help you be calm and OMG it smells AMAZING! And I went to read a book.


I was hooked from that point on. I had recently gotten on a health kick, so I was delighted to find out that the oils had actual health benefits. Like Thieves which smells like Christmas will help support your immunity. I will write all of this up in later posts but for now, just know that they smelll amazing, and they help support calmness, your immunity, and your whole body.


So I loved the DewDrop Diffuser, but I had seen the Desert Mist on a Facebook page and I…MUST…HAVE..ONE.. I had signed up for Essential Rewards after I was like hell yeah I will be ordering lots of stiff from Young Living. I put it in my order a crapload of oils and get this they even gave me FREE oils to reward me for buying so much. I put it on a three-day delivery and waited.


When My Desert Mist diffuser arrived, I set it up and hunted the candlelight setting and tested it. That is as close to a real candle as you can get without having an actual one. I was beyond impressed.


I have found that some oils and a supplement CortiStop help me achieve my goals of ultimate health. Like Danielle Laport says in White Hot Truth I don’t want just to be healthy and like I want to THRIVE. I want Ultimate health. I want to bask in the glow of the ecstasy of being as beautiful and healthy as possible this side of eternity.


Does the Desert Mist replace a candle in my opinion in my writing and reading rituals? YES,  I have the thing pumping out oil 24 hours a day. I even flavor my water with the peppermint, tangerine and orange and lemon ( not all at the same time though) My water intake is finally what it is supposed to be. I FEEL good and like my body is healing.


I recently went Paleo about six weeks ago now and omg so much nausea from the withdrawal of sugar and junk foods. Digitize saved me so many time. Last time I went through this I was huddled on the coach cursing all the Paleo gurus but this time I put Digize on my tongue and almost INSTANTLY the nausea was gone. These oils are amazing.


If you wanna chat oils with me feel free to email me



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young living essential oil premium statrer kit

nov blog and life goals

Posted November 2, 2017 by Hillary in life / 0 Comments

Get on my winter schedule

It is officially winter here in Cleveland. It is cold and will be until June, SO It is time to break out all my Hygee tricks and get comfy and settle into my winter routine with looks something like this.

  •  Wake Up
  • Get caffeinated
  • Work out
  • Come home put on clean Pj (It is winter ok. It is not likely that I will leave my apartment anytime to brave the cold unless I gotta go to the store or something in which case I will put on “real” clothes.)
  • Morning pages
  • Medaiate (I use Headspace)
  • Write
  • Read
  •  That is my wintertime Schedule. I will also have lots of hygee thrown in which I will talk about in a later post.


Work out Every day


I FINALLY got back in the habit of working out in Oct. I have been going every day for the last month, so I want to continue that. I am losing weight finally, and I am starting to have more energy and to be more focused, and all of that good stuff is yay!


Couch to 5k

I can finally run.. I may run slow, but I can do it! A friend mentioned the couch to 5k to me, and I thought here I could do that and train myself to run! I am excited about this. I never liked running before in my life, but I was never taught to run, and I always felt bad cause I was so slow, but I think now I am over what other people think so that maybe now I can finally learn properly.


Try a gluten free vegan diet again

I tried this before and felt like I was going to pass out one day and gave up. The dr told me I needed to take b vitamins and get enough vegan protein, so I am gonna take this b vitiemen supplement and stock up on the beans and other sources of protein. I will still be following weight watchers like I have been for the past few months now. I am severely allergic to wheat, so I am hoping that once I cut that out that I will feel 100 percent well. I want to THRIVE not just go through life living OKish is that makes sense.


Participate in Non-Fiction Nov

This is something that I have meant to participate in for years but it seemed that I always seemed to miss it. This year I caught the post explaining it in time to do it so yay! I will be participating. I am not sure what I will be reading as I am not a planner of that nature, but I definitely will be reading a lot of nonfiction!


Read at least ten books


My reading is woefully behind this year. This has not been a great reading year as you can tell. I am hoping if I read ten in November and ten in Dec that I will have read enough to do a top ten kind of thing.


Ways I am going to Make the Rest of 2017 Rock

Posted October 10, 2017 by Hillary in life / 2 Comments

I saw another blogger do this.  Start NOW then when the New Year rolls around you will already be in a routine, and your 2018 resolutions will stick! I thought this was a genius idea, so I am doing my version of it.


Exercise every day


Last year when I was exercising I felt soooo good. Then the holiday rolled around and well…  For the rest of this year, I am committing to exercising every day. Iknow some people like to do it just a few times a week I will only argue myself out of going if I did that. I will be like TODAY is an off day…evert day…so I am just gonna go every day and be done with it. Plus excessing does wonders for my self-esteem after a workout I always feel like I can move mountains and kick ass and I NEED that feeling to rock the rest of this year.


Stay on Weight Watchers


Even if I have a crappy eating day, I am not going just to give up and be all like well this lifestyle change is not changing anything. Sooner or later it will stick and then tracking will become a habit and not a pain in the ass like it is right now. I need to focus on progress, not perfection. I always feel if I mess up one day I get the rest of the week “free” I am like no if you mess up one day then just track and stay within your points for the rest of the week and don’t use any more weekly points.


Practice self-care.


This is something I have been neglecting. I wasn’t working most of all this year, and I just started back last month. I know I can’t cram a year worth of work into three months so I should just focus on making these the best three months as I can while at the same time implementing del-care prices. Like excessive and mediation and all of that stuff.


Write something every day


Writing is like anything else the more you do it, the better you get. I didn’t write much this year cause of my depressive episode. I am trying to get back in the habit like I had last year or before I got all sadface thankfully my writing is not horrendous or anything. It just takes a while to warm up. I used to be able to sit and write…write..write. Now it like stare at blank screen….types a few..words. Repeat. It was like when I went back to the gym after a year of not going. There was no me running on the treadmill for a min then doing a HIIT workout, nope, I was a huffing and a puffing for what seemed like the longest 20 minutes of my life. So  it is the same with writing. Gotta keep the writing muscles in shape.


Drink a gallon of water every day


I feel sooooo much better when I drink a gallon a day. I know that seems like a lot but for ME personally, I can tell a difference in energy and concentration levels when I drink that much water.  If I don’t drink water or as I am more likely to do to do own a gallon of diet coke instead i feel all fuzzy headed and tired. It is harder to get through my workouts and sometimes i even feel as if i am toeing the line of bona fide dehydration. That is NOT  fun feeling so I try to avoid it at all cost. I LOVE LaCroix and can blow through a whole case now in one day. I have recently discovered essential oils ( do me a favor and pllllease don’t just pick ANY oil  to drink. I only drink the ones in Young Living vitality line) the oils add some flavor to the water and best of all i can order me some little packets and take with me to restraints and stuff! I  am gonna wean myself off of my diet soda habit.


4 ways to prepare for fall

Posted September 27, 2017 by Hillary in life / 0 Comments


Fall is here upon us. I am writing this on Sept 26 so if the info in the next sentence seems dated you will know why.  If You were in Cleveland, you would never know it as the heatwave that has no end appears to stretch on and on. Alas, in my head and the calendar is it fall, and that is all that matter. Soon I will have my cool days and cooler nights, and I will be able to fully get into the spirit when the foliage turns glorious. I have somethings I like to do to get ready for fall. To get me in the fall frame of mind so to speak.

Below are the things that I like to do.


Allllll of the pajamas


In the summer I am known for going out and to do that I have to put on “real” clothes. But when fall and winter comes I am all about the pajamas. I am the Pajama queen. Seriously you show to see my collection. I buy pajamas like some people buy street clothes. I am all grabby hands. I prefer winter pajamas which limits my pajamas buying to certain months of the year, but that is ok.

My favorite is during Christmas time is to wear alll the Christmas pajamas. Again, I have awhile collection. In fact, I have so many that I have to start right after Halloween to get to them all. LOL.

So yeah I DO working my pajamas mostly in the winter months. I mean if I am not going anywhere and I am not meeting anyone on Skype why not. It is freezing, and I like to stay inside on the recliner in front of the fireplace with the Christmas tree. O.K that is my mom’s house I dream. I live in a tiny ass apartment, but someday I will have a house to be all cozy.


Get some fall scents….


I use to be all about the pumpkin spice. Until a friend turned me on to Young Living Thieves essential oil. You know those scented pinecones that come out around November? THAT is what it smells like. You best believe that I am stocking up. I am sure my mom will be glad that I won’t be filling her house with pinecones this year but I WILL be diffusing it a LOT!


Get alll the books

I am a seasonal reader, and in the fall I prefer horror and mysteries and the like. Stephen King is a big hit with me during darker months. Around Christmas, I like Christmas themed books and cozies. I HATE going out in the freezing cold to get books, so I use Hoopa, my library e-book thingie, and Scribed.


Get some supplements


I used to get SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) bad.  It became even worse when  I moved to Cleveland. But I have started taking 1500 MG of Vitamin D3 and five tablespoons of Fish oil..And I use a Happy Light. And this has completely alleviated my SAD. Even in the depths of Cleveland winters I am still my happy-go-lucky self


So tell me what do YOU do to get ready for fall if anything?


What Self Care Means to Me Right Now

Posted September 20, 2017 by Hillary in life / 0 Comments

Getting enough quality Sleep

This is very very very important. Before I tried to do ALL THE THINGS and sacrificed sleep. Even if I were up till 2 am my ass would still hit the gym at 5 am and work out for an hour and come back and start my day all over on three hours of sleep. Then one day I had a Cochlear Ear Implant check-up test thingie to make sure my balance was not damaged before they would put the second one in. I woke up at 5 am worked out and showered at the gym and met my friend who drove me to the hospital. It was a three-hour test, and a mall was RIGHT across the street, so my friend let me out at the hospital and went to the mall. I got called in, and during the test, I could not stay awake for the life of me. I kept falling asleep. I keep remembering when Arina  Huffington told her story in Sleep  Revolution she passed out, and the Dr finally told her she had passed out from her exhaustion. I  was all like shit; it is happening to ME. I mean I would go to sleep during the test, and the Dr would shake me, and I would awaken then I would go back to sleep. Finally, the Dr asked me when the last time I slept was, and I admitted my schedule to her, and she was like you have exhaustion. You need some sleep girl. I finally managed to finish the dang test (my balance was excellent no damage at all)  I got in my friend’s car and passed out. We arrived my apartment my friend had to HELP me to my apartment, and I went straight to bed and slept for three days. It took me weeks to fully recover. Never again. Now I have strict office hours where I write. I use Freedom as an internet blocker on a schedule, so I am forced to write during my most creative time from 1 pm to 6 pm. That time is sacred. I go to bed at 10 pm no ifs and or buts. I even have a sleep routine. I take a Melatonin at 9 pm start diffusing lavender and read a PAPER BOOK. No electronic glare. That’s right no phone, computer or anything after 9 pm. Usually, I am sound asleep at 10 pm. At the moment I have the dewdrop diffuser which only runs 4 hours. I am going to buy the Desert Diffuser which runs for 10 hours so I won’t wake up at 2 or three o’clock. I try and sleep until 6 am some days I even try to stretch it to 8 am. I am no longer one of those machos I go to the gym at 5 am and blah blah. I wake up get caffeinated THEN I go to the gym. I do not have a set time. As long as I get my workout in first thing my day usually goes well.


Using Essential Oils

I admit I used to be one of those people who made fun of individuals who tried essential oils. Then one of my favorite bloggers Modern Mrs. Darcy talked about trying them then I saw that Kris Carr recommended them and when I saw on Instagram that Danielle LaPorte herself was using essential oils I know I had to give them a try. I know many people who used Young Living swore by their products. I mean it was like my friends one by one had tried young Living and one by one they became die-hard fans. I grew up in central Appalachia so even though I am technically upper middle class now I still get a queasy feeling in my tummy when I spend over 50 dollars on something. I hovered on the buy button, my eyes ignored the puky feeling and pressed down on the buy button on the Young Living website. I can tell you now other than my cleaning lady this is equal to the best money I ever spent. I was shocked the dang oils did help me with my anxiety and getting over the flu. Seriously I was sick as a bitch all last week, and I drank some theives and rubbed purification on my throat in in three days I was all better. The dr told me I had a bad case too and I would be sick for at least two weeks, but nope with thieves and purification, I was back to work in three days. So now I am all like PEOPLE YOU GOTTA TRY Young Living.  I now have what I call my Holy Trinity. They are Steve Benzo of Amazon, Steve Jobs of Apple and now Dr. Gary Young Of Young Living. May God bless hem with the most sacred of blessings in all of the heavens. Amen


Surrounding myself with QUALITY friends

I used to judge my self-worth by the number of friends I had. Unfortunately, I had ALOT of Frenemies who were desperate to see me fail. And I did stumble quite a few times before I learned my lesson.  Now I count only a few people as my friends. It is the QUALITY of friends not the number of friends that matter. I only accept people that uplift me and have goals like me and want to uplift me and see me accomplish my goals. I follow Danielle LaPorte advice to keep your heart wide open to people who have shown that they are trustworthy and keep it wide open but keep a fucking fence around it. The people who I know would love to see me fail or stumble I keep on the outside. I will still show them love, but they do not have access to my inner self. I am learning boundaries fairly late in life, but I am learning.


September 2017 Goals

Posted September 1, 2017 by Hillary in life / 0 Comments


Get back on track With Exercising and Weight wATCHERS.

I have to admit that this past month I fell completely off the Weight Watcher wagon. I am not sure why. It seems that the weight comes off sooooo slow but that partly because I was half-assing it before. I gotta get my butt back to meetings and recommit to it cause this weight is also driving me insane. I know I can do it. I want to make these last months of 2017 unforgettable and if i can lose 50 pounds between now and Jan 1 I would be thrilled. So back to meetings and the gym I go.

Get Involved with Booksagram

I meant to do this a while ago but then I got deeply depressed then my apartment was a disaster zone and I had nowhere to take pictures. I was really embarrassed at how my apartment looked and there was no way I was gonna post any pics in my apartment. Now that it is ALMOST spotless I feel confident that I can post some pictures without dying of shame so I am going to get involved with the whole books a gram thingies.

Get back into a daily routine

I don’t just mean a morning routine either. Last year I had a solid routine and I actually got shit done. It involved working out at 5 am and writing in the morning and reading at night and sleep a solid 10 hours. The sleep part I am most looking forward to. I know I need at least 10 hours a night to really feel my best and at the moment I sleep in three-hour spurts. I have some remedies I am testing so I will let you know if they work or not.

Keep up with cleaning schedule

After doing a “crisis cleaning” I got my apartment presentable and now am using the Unfuck your Habitat app to get it in top-notch condition and to keep it that way. I know what they say about messy creatives but honestly, I can’t function in a mess so my apartment and desk need to be kept clean.

Post more consistently

It is said that one of the keys to blog growth is to be consistent with our posting. I know I have been erratic in my posting schedule and I feel that if I could get back into my routines then I would be able to post more consistently so this goal ties in with the get back into a daily routine one.

Post more on Listy

Again this is something that I have meant to do for a while but again depression. I want to explore this app to its fullest potential. Shameless plug I am purplemoonmyst on there.

Post more on Goodreads

You would think that this would be the social network that I am involved with most be Goodreads instead of Facebook.  Facebook was making me angry all the time so I installed a news feed blocker and now just post in groups. My Trump supporting “friends” pissed me off and some others are just plain dumb so to keep the small amount o in real life friends that I have I had to take drastic action. And guess what? My anxiety has gone down some what and my happiness and peace of shot way up.  So I am switching my focus to Goodreads as I have yet to have a book person piss me off to the extent some of my friends have. Another shameless plug I am purplemoonmyst on Goodreads also.


Posted August 21, 2017 by Hillary in life / 0 Comments



my kitten. I know people offline get tired of hearing about the kitten but he brings me so much happiness and joy. I didn’t realize what a big empty hole I had until I got the kitty. He is a little asshole but I still love him!


My crappy internet connection. I will have to get my mother to call ATT  since  Every Time I try and call using my Veido phone my internet cuts me off.  Technology is supposed to put us on an equal footing but when technology fucks up we are basically SOL and have to rely on other people.


Get Rich Lucky Bitch. I am so curious now about the manifestation thingie. I have read about it before but THIS book goes into detail HOW to do it. I realize I have money blocks and I am working on clearing them. I wish I could afford to take her boot camp course but alas.  I am paying an arm and a leg for a mastermind so I can’t currently justify spending 500 on a course.

Trying out

A new diet program. Facebook finally convinced me to try NOOM. So far I like it. It tells you exactly what to do to make sure you lose weight and u have a personal coach to talk to. The price is steep but I am getting tired of Weight Watchers and this is all on your phone so no more meetings or any of that. Plus I like when it reminds u of meals times and it tells you u need to take 5,000 steps today. It even hooks up with my Fitbit! I only tried it for a week so we shall see in a month or two how it goes.


Listing to lots and lots of podcasts! I still can’t believe that I can understand them. I have obly been able to for around three months now so I know I will NEVER get caught up and that makes me sad but I am SO loving being able to just listen to a podcast while I clean or cook.

Working on

making myself a paperless office. I want to be location independent in the near future and if I could just get everything online like contracts I have for my writing and all of that then I could just pack up my laptop and go. I am still working out the kinks though.


Halo Top Ice Cream!  For someone who is looking to lose over 100 pounds, this is a god send. I can’t believe that it took me so long to try it. I heard about it at a weight watchers meeting and I was skeptical at first. I mean how could a DIET ice cream taste good but everyone was raving about it so I was like fine I will try. One bite and I almost got on my knees to thank the good Lord above for it. Now I can have my ice cream.

Meet Marble Icicle Orlando

Posted July 6, 2017 by Hillary in life / 2 Comments

If you followed me on social media at all you have probably heard me talk about the new Kitten I have. If you haven’t heard or saw him here he is….

Marbles pondering the meaning of life.

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It is a funny and sad story of how I got him. His previous owner got him as a therapy cat, but he turned out to be more work than anticipated. There was some frenzy in trying to get him a new home before I heard about him. I had been thinking about getting a new kitten but never actually took steps to acquire one. Then I heard that Marbles was looking for a forever home,  so I volunteered.


There is no rhyme or reason for the name Marble Icicle. It is just what popped into my head when I saw him. Various people have looked at me funny when I tell them his name, but when I met him and held him for the first time, Marble Icicle popped into my head, so that is the name that I I went with.


He is a very hands-on kitten. He demands to have attention paid to him a LOT. He wants to play all the time which makes blogging and writing hard. I try and type, and he comes and lays on my keyboard and all of that. He also likes to wake me up at three is to play then curl up in my arms for nap.


He is also the sweetest little cat. He will rub his face against mine and purr. He also will curl up with me and sleep. He more than does his job as a therapy kitty. When I tell him something, he will even meow back to me.  My previous cat who crossed the rainbow bridge six years ago was an asshole, so it is nice to have a more “typical” kitty.


Overall he is a precious little kitty, and I am glad to have found him. I feel that he has abandonment issues when his previous owner gave him up cause when new people come in the apartment, he gets scared. I have tried to show and tell him that he is with me till he crosses the rainbow bridge but I am not sure how to make him not scared when he sees other people. Any suggestions would be welcome!


He has helped me out this last week that I have had him he has lifted me out of this funk I find myself in. Well, maybe not ALL the way but he has done more than I thought a kitty would. He makes sure I get out of bed eery morning to fill his bowl with kibbles and to play with him. Without him here by my side who knows I might still be in bed waiting till the end of time.


It is funny to think that I almost did not go to the therapy appointment where I heard about him. I was all like I don’t want to shower then get dressed and all of that. In the end, I forced myself to go, and I am glad I did for I got the best thing to happen to me this year!


Happy 4th Of July!!!

Posted July 4, 2017 by Hillary in life / 0 Comments


I want to wish my American readers a Happy 4th of July! I hope you have a blast eating and watching fireworks! I had an early 4th on the 30th, so I will not be partaking in the traditional fare. A friend and I are doing the Crazy Sexy Diet Vegan Cleanse for the month of July, so I will only be eating plants that are still alive, and maybe I will grill some tofu hotdogs and just eat that minus the bun as I am also avoiding gluten.



I hope That everyone has a happy 4th!!!


July 2017 Life Goals

Posted July 1, 2017 by Hillary in life / 0 Comments

I have hinted at my depression this year on the blog, but I did not mention how deep it went. The last three months have been one of the worst depressions I have had since being diagnosed with bipolar. I am on the mend,

but recovery isn’t just like pop a pill then you are all better. It is a process. You have to fight your way out of the hell hole that is bipolar depression. Click To Tweet

I have also started therapy again. This time it is in connection with my binge eating disorder. I am still Following Weight Watchers, but I do that online to track my food. I go to therapy once a week where I come up with ways to cope with binge eating. I have also started going to the gym again. I was soo scared going for the first time in almost five months, but I did it, and true to its word Planet Fitness IS a judgment free zone! My trainer welcomed me back. Needless to say, I can’t just run a mile and do an HIIT workout like before. Again I have to build up to it.


Any good therapist will tell you not to just lay around feeling sorry for yourself. In fact, this blog was started because I had just been diagnosed with Bipolar and the therapist suggested that I engage in a hobby to prevent me from just laying on my bed curled up in the fetal piston waiting for the end of time.


I was going over and over in my head how I could ease back into work and stuff. I kept coming back to Tolstoy and the Purple Chair. In this book, the author reads a book a day for a year to grieve for her sister. While a year sounds extreme, I was like I could do that for a month. Then it hit me. Why not read a book a day for a month? That way I could feel like I was doing SOMETHING while still healing from the depths of the darkness I found myself in. So I came up with an idea and a plan for next month. This is the routine that I will follow every day, except Sundays when I go to church.


  • Get up
  • Get caffeinated
  • Hit the gym
  • Come home shower
  • Put on work PJ ( I am still in the can hardly leave my apt phase)
  • Morning Pages
  • Write some blog posts
  • Read a book


Also, I will go to ALL therapy and Drs appointments. No rescheduling or canceling like I tend to do.


This routine will help me ease back into my old routine. I am BETTER but not completely well yet. I feel that is I follow this it will help me get all the way better so that I can come back strong!


I just want to let people know that if you are suffering from bipolar or depression that you are not alone and the sickness won’t last forever. There is hope.

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