Happy New Year! Goals for 2016

In years past, I had always made the traditional New Years Goals. I would make goals and like I actually achieved a lot of them. I would still have this empty hollow feeling inside of me. Then I read the Desire Map Book this year and it broke me wide open. In the past I had been making goals the traditional way. Goals that I THOUGHT I needed to make and that would get me to where I wanted to go and once I reached that point then I would be happy and fulfilled. However, this never happened. I would reach a goal then…nothing…
However after reading the Desire Map, I realized that I was going about things the wrong way. I realized that If I found out how I really want to FEEL then made goals around THAT then I could be happy now and not trudge through to some questionable future where I may or may not have the happiness I so craved.
I did the workbook and thought hard and worked with some words that described my core desired feelings. After a week of this, I came up with my core desired feelings. They are:
Adventurous
I want to have adventures. I don’t mean the kind where I risk my life but more of getting out of my apartment and living live. My social worker (Every person with bipolar or schizophrenia who is in treatment has a team that includes, at least, the DR and the social worker) described me as “homebound” last year. We got into an argument cause I said I may be reclusive but I most definitely wasn’t homebound. She pointed out that I rarely even left my apartment and that made me homebound. I really don’t want to be homebound and I realized that staying in my hidey hole was, in fact, making me depressed at times. So I want to do stuff. Out of my apartment.
Captivating
I started actually getting dressed at the end of this year. I discovered Gwynniebee Bee and have been getting clothes from them and I feel like I can kick ass when I am dressed up. I feel like bring it on world, I am READY! Strangely I also feel more confident. I feel cute, sexy and I don’t go out and hope no one mistakes me for a homeless person. I even have people ask for my business cards.I feel good when I look good.
Devoted
There are things that are part of my soul. Like writing and reading. I have neglected both in the past after I got sucked into the underworld of the internets. I want to devote more time to stuff like that instead of mindlessly clicking link after link. I also want to be close to the few friends I do have. I AM extremely introverted so having a huge crowd of friends is not gonna happen. I used to be what is called popular. After all, I was in a sorority and all in college and I always felt overwhelmed. People after people always trying to talk to me about stuff.. ughhhh I used to go to the library and hide. hahahah Then people found my hidey hole and OMG there was no peace until after I graduated. Now I am careful about who I allow in my inner circle.
I also want to be devoted in the spiritual sense. I am more Danielle Laporte than Charles Stanly. I don’t do organized religion but I am deeply spiritual and I want to continue to cultivate that.
Passionate
Whatever I do I want to throw my whole soul into doing it. I don’t want to half-ass anything. Take for example blogging. There are many times when I will just throw up a post and call it a day. I want to really put effort into what I write. I want to express myself and I want to cultivate my creativity to its fullest. I want to be proud to tell people that my blog is xxxx rather than be like oh shit they found my blog. There have been many times I have gone back over posts and I see typos and stuff that if I had just put a little more care into it than it would have been better and looked better. So from now on I want to throw my whole soul into stuff that I do and ONLY do the stuff that I am passionate about.

I want to feel the way I have described and I have started making goals that will make me feel that way. For example. I am doing the 21-day fix with shakeology. In the moment, I HATE to exercise but afterward, I feel like I can take on whatever the day throws at me. It helps my depression and anxiety. At times, I get mad cause I am restricted in what I can eat but I know when I feel good and not like I am gonna puke then I can do more things that make me feel even better.
I may think it is pointless to get dressed when I work from home but I think I need to do more periscopes and YouTube and I refuse to do those when I look like crap so If I get dressed then I can do more of that.

You can see how I am making goals around how I feel. I am going to try this way this year and see how it goes. I even have the desire map planner! BRING IT ON 2016.

What are some of YOUR goals for this year?