Book Review: Girl of Nightmares (Anna #2) by Kendare Blake

Posted January 6, 2016 by Hillary in Book Reviews / 3 Comments

ISBN: 0765328666
Book Review: Girl of Nightmares (Anna #2) by Kendare BlakeGirl of Nightmares (Anna, #2) by Kendare Blake
Published by Tor Teen on August 7th 2012
Pages: 332
Format: ebook
Source: library
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five-stars

It's been months since the ghost of Anna Korlov opened a door to Hell in her basement and disappeared into it, but ghost-hunter Cas Lowood can't move on.
His friends remind him that Anna sacrificed herself so that Cas could live—not walk around half dead. He knows they're right, but in Cas's eyes, no living girl he meets can compare to the dead girl he fell in love with.
Now he's seeing Anna everywhere: sometimes when he's asleep and sometimes in waking nightmares. But something is very wrong...these aren't just daydreams. Anna seems tortured, torn apart in new and ever more gruesome ways every time she appears.
Cas doesn't know what happened to Anna when she disappeared into Hell, but he knows she doesn't deserve whatever is happening to her now. Anna saved Cas more than once, and it's time for him to return the favor.

my review

I read the first book and with THAT ending, I just had to find out what happened after. So I squealed with glee when my hold at the library came up after what seemed like forever for this book. I tell ya, I am going to have to start reading more YA cause some of it is damn good books.

Anyway, the story continues right after book one ends so you gotta start with book one. This is in no way a stand-alone. I was anxious to get to the REAL story. I felt that some of what was in the book leading up to the climax was just filler but what do I know?

The plot completely believable, the world building is spectacular and the characters are fully fleshed out. I could relate to all of them. Well, expcet the popular girl. I was never popular in High School so I have no idea what that is like. I still felt that how she reacted was in tune to what I remember from how a popular girl would react.

I loved reading about how the other read books to try and understand the magic behind what they were doing. I would have LIKED to have more detail about the occult side of it but that may have made it a non-YA book. There was that one scene that actually sent shivers up my spine.  I am trying not to spoil it for those who have not read it yet. I know I am not doing a very good job at conveying my love for this book.

OMG, that scene where the “aunt” spirt comes and talks to them and feeds them snacks. She gives them a lot of info to go on for their quest but it turns out that she is dead. It was night time when I read that and I almost screamed. Can you imagine talking to someone then going to their bedroom and finding out they have been dead for a YEAR?!?

And the love story! I wonder if I know anyone that would come and rescue me from hell? I don’t know if it was my fundamentalist Christian upbringing but I detected some religious overtones in this book. The whole you must shed blood and “die” to get someone out of hell. umm, remind you of anyone? cough

I LOVED LOVED LOVED this book! If you are a fan of YA horror you should get you a copy as soon as possible!

final verdict

i loved it

five-stars
Hillary

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Book Review: The Pocket Pema Chodron by Pema Chödrön

Posted January 5, 2016 by Hillary in Book Reviews / 0 Comments

ISBN: 1590306511
Book Review: The Pocket Pema Chodron by Pema ChödrönThe Pocket Pema Chodron by Pema Chödrön
Published by Shambhala on December 9th 2008
Pages: 176
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five-stars

Here is a treasury of 108 short selections from the best-selling books of Pema Chödrön, the beloved Buddhist nun. Designed for on-the-go inspiration, this collection offers teachings on:
   • becoming fearless
   • breaking free of destructive patterns
   • developing patience, kindness, and joy amid our everyday struggles
   • unlocking our natural warmth, intelligence, and goodness

my review

I Love Pema Chadron. I  really can’t put my finger on it but whenever I read her I feel inspired to be a better person. She talks openly and honestly about how she fails at times to live you to the whole zen thing but she never makes you feel like you are an asshole if you are struggling to get to a higher plane of existence I guess is how I would put it.

This book is like a devotional book filled with short stories of hers. You can read one then go back and read another one when you need an uplift.

Her view on things will really make you think. For example, I feel like I am generally a great person at this point in my life. I try and be all zen and stuff and look for the good in people and all of that. Yet reading some of her teachings, I realize how far I have to go. I think I am ALMOST enlightened then BAM I look up and it is miles and miles away.

Yet I don’t feel like she is talking down to me like I get the feeling with some Christian authors. I feel like she is merely pointing out a way up. Like she is clearing the path for me so to speak.

final verdict

i loved it

 

 

five-stars
Hillary

About Hillary

I am a book lover who loves to read and write. I only leave my apartment for food and MOAR books. I love to meet new people online so don't be afraid to say hi!

It is Monday What are you reading?

Posted January 4, 2016 by Hillary in ramblings / 13 Comments

it is monday

I am back in my reading groove. I am craving stories instead of non-fiction. My personal life is nil at the moment after cutting out everyone who was bad for me which was pretty much 99 percent of the people I know. I feel more free but no one to hang out with so I am gonna be my introverted self and read. I quit smoking, I eat Paleo and I have managed to get rid of all my bad habits so I self-soothe by diving into stories. This is what I have planned for this week:


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Fardwor Russia- This is an EArc. I think It is out sometime next week. I thought it sounded interesting. It is supposed to be a satire of Putin. It took me a min to realize that it says Forward Russia on the cover. Once I did I was like DUH Hillary.



gold fame

Gold Fame Citrus  This was on the long list of the tournament of books and I liked the sound of it so I was like why not? Plus I want to have been able to read some of the shortlist. Some people have basketball. I have The Tournament of Books.

4 hour work week

4 hour work week- I got the new expanded version. I have read this before but I am curious about what is expanded. Maybe they came up with a real 4 hour work week. lol

dumplin

Dumplin’-
A fat girl who is proud to be fat? Count me in. I have waited for this book my whooooole life.

Hillary

About Hillary

I am a book lover who loves to read and write. I only leave my apartment for food and MOAR books. I love to meet new people online so don't be afraid to say hi!

The Sunday Salon Jan 3 2016

Posted January 3, 2016 by Hillary in Sunday Salon / 4 Comments

The Sunday Salon

Hi, Everyone!! Happy 2016! I am back in My apartment in Ohio after spending a month at my parents. I came back on Greyhound but no HorrorBus this time. Well maybe there was but I was too sick to know. No, I am not sick sick again. I am back on Paleo and doing the Whole30 again and yesterday was just..ughh. I felt like I was gonna puke and I had no energy and I was all achy. Trust me The first few days of Whole30 and travel don’t mix. I am DETERMINED to get this weight off so I can travel so it is what it is. I made it to my apartment but not without the help of a nice Uber Driver. By the time, I had gotten to Akron I was DONE. I could hardly lift my suitcase to put it in the car. So the nice driver helped me then did not freak out when I thought I was actually going to puke. I didn’t and I came to my apt changed into my PJ’s and called it a day. Well, I read of course. My First book of the year was The Fire Starter Sessions. I love me some Danelle Laporte. I have even been using my planner like crazy. I want to really live my life this year instead of mindlessly clicking on links on the internet so I have been trying to think of things. I am undecided if I want to go the whole sticker route. Maybe I will lol. I will have to look and see if I can find stickers I like. Anyone know of any cute stickers?

I am going to try and plan out my reading this year. I am hoping that if I actually PLAN on what I am going to read then maybe I will get to more of what I want to read. Or At least, read more. Ok so 75 books last year is nothing to take lightly but I used to read way more than that.  I feel as if most of the last year has gone down the internet rabbit holes.

I have also started an editorial calendar for this blog. I found out at the tail end of last year that If I had a plan then I would actually sit down and write. I have read that if you make things easier then you will be more likely to do it. So far that has been holding true.

I have made plans to go to the Library on Wednesday after my shrink appointment. This will be the first time I have been back in over a year. I am telling you, me paying off that library fine was a damn good Christmas present to myself.

The only thing I MUST do today is to go to the food store then I am gonna read Dumplin

 

 

 

Hillary

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I am a book lover who loves to read and write. I only leave my apartment for food and MOAR books. I love to meet new people online so don't be afraid to say hi!

Happy New Year! Goals for 2016

Posted January 1, 2016 by Hillary in Book Reviews / 2 Comments

 

 

 

In years past, I had always made the traditional New Years Goals. I would make goals and like I actually achieved a lot of them. I would still have this empty hollow feeling inside of me. Then I read the Desire Map Book this year and it broke me wide open. In the past I had been making goals the traditional way. Goals that I THOUGHT I needed to make and that would get me to where I wanted to go and once I reached that point then I would be happy and fulfilled. However, this never happened. I would reach a goal then…nothing…
However after reading the Desire Map, I realized that I was going about things the wrong way. I realized that If I found out how I really want to FEEL then made goals around THAT then I could be happy now and not trudge through to some questionable future where I may or may not have the happiness I so craved.
I did the workbook and thought hard and worked with some words that described my core desired feelings. After a week of this, I came up with my core desired feelings. They are:
Adventurous
I want to have adventures. I don’t mean the kind where I risk my life but more of getting out of my apartment and living live. My social worker (Every person with bipolar or schizophrenia who is in treatment has a team that includes, at least, the DR and the social worker) described me as “homebound” last year. We got into an argument cause I said I may be reclusive but I most definitely wasn’t homebound. She pointed out that I rarely even left my apartment and that made me homebound. I really don’t want to be homebound and I realized that staying in my hidey hole was, in fact, making me depressed at times. So I want to do stuff. Out of my apartment.
Captivating
I started actually getting dressed at the end of this year. I discovered Gwynniebee Bee and have been getting clothes from them and I feel like I can kick ass when I am dressed up. I feel like bring it on world, I am READY! Strangely I also feel more confident. I feel cute, sexy and I don’t go out and hope no one mistakes me for a homeless person. I even have people ask for my business cards.I feel good when I look good.
Devoted
There are things that are part of my soul. Like writing and reading. I have neglected both in the past after I got sucked into the underworld of the internets. I want to devote more time to stuff like that instead of mindlessly clicking link after link. I also want to be close to the few friends I do have. I AM extremely introverted so having a huge crowd of friends is not gonna happen. I used to be what is called popular. After all, I was in a sorority and all in college and I always felt overwhelmed. People after people always trying to talk to me about stuff.. ughhhh I used to go to the library and hide. hahahah Then people found my hidey hole and OMG there was no peace until after I graduated. Now I am careful about who I allow in my inner circle.
I also want to be devoted in the spiritual sense. I am more Danielle Laporte than Charles Stanly. I don’t do organized religion but I am deeply spiritual and I want to continue to cultivate that.
Passionate
Whatever I do I want to throw my whole soul into doing it. I don’t want to half-ass anything. Take for example blogging. There are many times when I will just throw up a post and call it a day. I want to really put effort into what I write. I want to express myself and I want to cultivate my creativity to its fullest. I want to be proud to tell people that my blog is xxxx rather than be like oh shit they found my blog. There have been many times I have gone back over posts and I see typos and stuff that if I had just put a little more care into it than it would have been better and looked better. So from now on I want to throw my whole soul into stuff that I do and ONLY do the stuff that I am passionate about.

I want to feel the way I have described and I have started making goals that will make me feel that way. For example. I am doing the 21-day fix with shakeology. In the moment, I HATE to exercise but afterward, I feel like I can take on whatever the day throws at me. It helps my depression and anxiety. At times, I get mad cause I am restricted in what I can eat but I know when I feel good and not like I am gonna puke then I can do more things that make me feel even better.
I may think it is pointless to get dressed when I work from home but I think I need to do more periscopes and YouTube and I refuse to do those when I look like crap so If I get dressed then I can do more of that.

You can see how I am making goals around how I feel. I am going to try this way this year and see how it goes. I even have the desire map planner! BRING IT ON 2016.

What are some of YOUR goals for this year?

Hillary

About Hillary

I am a book lover who loves to read and write. I only leave my apartment for food and MOAR books. I love to meet new people online so don't be afraid to say hi!

My Top ten books that I read this Year and Dec Roundup

Posted December 31, 2015 by Hillary in ramblings / 2 Comments

 

This past year was a dismal year for reading. I only read 52 books. You can see what all I read here. I am changing that this year. I got sucked into the internet and I have found that mindlessly clicking on link after link does nothing to boost my happiness so I got a plan for this year. I am scheduling in EVERYTHING and that includes more time doing actual  reading. I hope to hit 200 books. I know that is a high number but I used to read that many before I became addicted to the internet. I fully own and admit it, I AM addicted to the ‘net. I am breaking that addiction and actually living life this year. Anyway on to the top ten. This is books I have read this year not published this year. Expect for the number one book they are in no order. They are all my favorite books that I have read this year.

The number one book I have read is:

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The Desire Map: This book broke me open in so many ways. I felt as if reality parted and showed me a better way of living. I realized I had been going about setting goals all wrong and living a life meant for another person. I sat down went through the workbook and even got the planner and made a life that would make Hillary happy. This book was life changing…fo realz. No other book has touched me or changed my life so radically as this one. I push this book on everyone I know. Seriously you need to run out and get this book NOW!

Next in line is:

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Seriously… how did I not know about this before?!? I started reading Panels and decided to check this one out and fell in love. There are SO many things to like about this comic. This has to be my most fave comic as of today.

sex crimnals

Sex Criminals: OMG I LOVE THIS COMIC! I heard about it from Sarah and now she is my go to for comics to read.

 

emapthy

The Empathy Exams: This one was so good I read it twice. I loved how she takes what Empathy means and turns it on its head. The Essays are raw and personal and you just need to read it for yourself
gone girl

Gone Girl: I was almost afraid to read this in case it did not live up to the hype but OMG did it ever! This was a mind fuck of a book.  And that ending. It makes sense yet you are left with a feeling of are you fucking kidding me? It is a trip.
hsThis book was a trip also. It starts out tame then builds to a climax that you won’t see coming. It will leave you feeling uneasy and when you get to the so-called ending? well don’t read this t

hen go to a big box store.

a new earthA New Earth: I read this After hearing about it in the Desire Map. It is best read under the influence so that your mind is expanded and can take in the info he talks about. This book has excellent points but it is way out there. I loved it for that.
travling mercies

Traveling Mercies: I was wanting to read more Christian authors and Bryan recommended Ann Lamont. I am so glad that that he did. I read this book and fell in love. When I finished this book I felt inspired and not like an asshole. I have come up with an “asshole test” that I will explain about in a future post. Basically, it is when you finish a book you feel inspired by the book and not like an asshole because you are a broken human living in a fallen world and you fail to live up to some standard.

 

laneThe Ocean at the End of the Lane: I can’t not put a Neil Gaiman on my top ten list. This is the book he came out with this year and it exceeded EVERY expectation. I don’t know how he does it but every story he writes just leaves me with my jaw on the floor going OMG HOW DID HE COME UP WITH THAT?

fall apart

When Things Fall Apart: I heard of her through The Desire Map and I read this book and fell in love with her. I love how she is raw and real and admits how she has problems and struggles to remain zen. She is fully human in her writing and I was left feeling inspired.

In December, I took the whole month off of really blogging. What I did manage is:

Hillary

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I am a book lover who loves to read and write. I only leave my apartment for food and MOAR books. I love to meet new people online so don't be afraid to say hi!

Big Changes are a-coming!

Posted December 23, 2015 by Hillary in Book Reviews / 2 Comments

There has been talking recently in the book blogging community about book bloggers making money from their blog. At first, I was like oh please but the more I thought of it, the more it made sense to combine everything into this blog. This blog is my first love and the one I am always excited to work on. It is hard to keep two blogs going and I was fast losing enthusiasm for my Hillary Nicole Roberts blog. I write about writing and reading on both blogs so why not combine both into THIS blog and put what services I offer here?

I admit that this will be a big change and it may come to backfire on me. It is something I really want to do and I am going to make sure it is successful. I will be adding services and products to the blog this year. I have really big plans for 2016 and I can’t wait to show all of you!

In the mean time would you mind taking this short survey and tell me what you want to see more of or less of? This will help me plan my content and make sure it is better suited to your needs! Thank you so much! I love all of you and hope you have a very Merry Christmas! I will see you Jan 1st!

Take me to the survey!

Hillary

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I am a book lover who loves to read and write. I only leave my apartment for food and MOAR books. I love to meet new people online so don't be afraid to say hi!

Sunday Salon December 20 2015

Posted December 20, 2015 by Hillary in ramblings, Sunday Salon / 6 Comments

I haven’t been writing on either this blog o my work website. Mostly cause I am sick of the internet and it is the holidays and no one reads blogs on the holidays. I managed to crack the secret of Pinterest smart feed. HAHAHA PINTEREST! Basically, it involved sitting your ass down and pinning thousands of pins with a pin scheduling tool. I WAS using TailWind but the I discovered board booster and got better results with that so. I was pinning so much I was pinning in my sleep. Pininterst WAS my all time favorite site but now. ugh. So I decided to give myself a break from the internets. I can feel myself starting to warm up to the idea of doing it all again come the new year. I want to follow more book bloggers on Pinterest, though. I will go through all the blogs and follow all of you or if you want to leave me a link that will be fine also. I have about all I can take of 10 ways to grow your Instagram followers.  On the other hand, maybe I will tackle Instagram next, hee.

I have been reading up a storm. My hold of the Opposite of Loneliness came in and OMG I can’t BELIVE the author is dead. I want to write to her family and beg them to release everything she has ever written. If they can do it with Haper Lee they can do it for Marinia Keegan. That girl can write. It was so good that my mom had to tell me to “put my damn kindle down” at my stepfather’s birthday dinner. That dinner was good. The best damn bbq I had in my life with a damn good brownie a la mode and a good book. HA I guess the people were ok. I wouldn’t know I just mostly ignored them and held my kindle under the table and read.

I finally convince mom to put the tree up. I help decorate and honestlyI wanted to decorate it with purple but mom is a traditionist and it ended up being in red.

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It is still a pretty tree, though. Maybe next year I can convince her to go with pastels.

My mom also FINALLY got gas for the fireplace so I could read by the tree and fireplace. It was still in the 70’s the day she got it and I was all like I don’t give a damn it is Christmas and I am gonna wear my Christmas PJ and read by the tree and fireplace and drink my eggnog. I won that one. Two days after she had it delivered the temp dropped 40 degrees overnight and it snowed. Ha wished DO come true. I managed to capture a photo of me reading.

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That book was for an online book club I am in and it was very thought provoking. It mostly talked about how we have an Upper Limit Problem and we uncousinly make ourselves sick and stuff when  we reach it. Like I said it is something to think about. A review will be on here after the New Year.

This week is Christmas. I had asked for the Desire Map Planner. You can read my review of the Desire Map here. Basically, it was life changing. Instead, of goals, I am going to do things to achieve my core desired feelings. This will be the first year in my life I won’t make goals per se so This time next year we will know how this experiment went.

I know one of the things that REALLY helped before was to embrace the whole Paleo Lifestyle. I know I said before I don’t really like meat, but that’s not true. I love beef. And if the chicken is cooked right, chicken. And I can eat other things if I don’t dwell on what it is exactly. The point is I like meat enough to go back on Paleo. I have found thousands of beef recipes on the internet so I am set for a really long time. I have decided that this is the year I finally learn to cook. I love looking in recipe books and I know once I get over the hump of being frustrated I will love to cook. I just have to stick it out until I get decent at it. There is a point I give up on stuff. I know this so I gotta stick it out more. I mean take photoshop. Before I couldn’t do shit with it. Then I sat down and watched youtube and figured out the  basics and now I am making blog graphics! And I LOVE it! So I gotta get over that hump with cooking.

There will be some changes coming to this blog in the new year. I will still blog about books and have reviews, but I also want to make it more of a lifestyle bloggy.  The Dr found the magic combo of pills that made me want to join the land of the living again and my interests are expanding. So be on the lookout for new and different types of posts!

 

Hillary

About Hillary

I am a book lover who loves to read and write. I only leave my apartment for food and MOAR books. I love to meet new people online so don't be afraid to say hi!

10% Happier: How I Tamed the Voice in My Head, Reduced Stress Without Losing My Edge, and Found Self-Help That Actually Works by Dan Harris

Posted December 17, 2015 by Hillary in Book Reviews / 1 Comment

ISBN: 0062265423
10% Happier: How I Tamed the Voice in My Head, Reduced Stress Without Losing My Edge, and Found Self-Help That Actually Works by Dan Harris10% Happier: How I Tamed the Voice in My Head, Reduced Stress Without Losing My Edge, and Found Self-Help That Actually Works by Dan Harris
Published by It Books on March 11th 2014
Pages: 256
Format: ebook
Source: library
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four-stars

After having a nationally televised panic attack on Good Morning America, Dan Harris knew he had to make some changes. After learning about research that suggests meditation can do everything from lower your blood pressure to essentially rewire your brain, Harris took a deep dive into the underreported world of CEOs, scientists, and even marines who are now using it for increased calm, focus, and happiness. "10% Happier" takes readers on a ride from the outer reaches of neuroscience to the inner sanctum of network news to the bizarre fringes of America's spiritual scene, and leaves them with a takeaway that could actually change their lives

Why I decided to read this book

I wanted to read a book to get started on my happiness project in January. I admit I was scrolling through books on overdrive and it was the title that made me check it out.

my review

I was really getting into the book til he made fun Of Eckhart Tolle. I read Eckhart and feel in love. Then I looked at it from HIS perspective and ok Tolle is a little well WAY out there but Tolle makes valid points. So there. This book was really heavy on the sarcasm. Which I have to admit irked me a little. I mean I am a hardcore Desire Mapper so you know I eat up stuff like Tolle. I even order the Desire Mapper planner. I know this was a journey from Harris perspective so I tried to read it as it was meant to be read.

When I switched gears I really loved reading about how he found meditation helpful. I loved reading about how he overcame drugs and such and how he dealt with the pressure to get to the top. I found a lot of useful tidbits that I can apply to my own life. I even wrote them in my personal development list so I wouldn’t forget them.He told the truth about what happened when he tried mediation. I too could relate to his journey. I struggled to get to the point where I could “detach” and see things for what they are. I still struggle at times. Sometimes when I am meditating I am all like this is bullshit. Yet some days I reach that place of ALMOST niverina and I feel like I have clarity on what to do with my life.

In the end, I really ended up loving this book. If you can handle a heavy dose of scarcsam then you should read it also.

final verdict

i loved it

four-stars
Hillary

About Hillary

I am a book lover who loves to read and write. I only leave my apartment for food and MOAR books. I love to meet new people online so don't be afraid to say hi!

Review: Every Bitter Thing Is Sweet: Tasting the Goodness of God in All Things by Sara Hagerty

Posted December 16, 2015 by Hillary in Book Reviews / 0 Comments

I received this book for free from publisher in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.

ISBN: 9780310339953
Review: Every Bitter Thing Is Sweet: Tasting the Goodness of God in All Things by Sara HagertyEvery Bitter Thing Is Sweet by Sara Hagerty
Published by Zondervan on October 7th 2014
Genres: Religion, Christian Life, Spiritual Growth, General, Inspirational
Pages: 208
Format: eARC
Source: publisher
Goodreads
three-stars

Every Bitter Thing Is Sweet by Sara Hagerty is the story of a woman whose life expectations went unmet while her heart became re-acquainted with her first Love. God, who comes in the hunger that pain so masterfully produces, worked His way into her insides to write a love-story as universal as the barrenness that every life clothed-in-flesh wears.
 A back alley is an unsuspecting place for a brush with God. In the age of fingertip access to pipe dreams and a ceiling-less supply of ambitions, where do you find the God who was birthed in dirt and straw? Sara Hagerty found Him when life stopped working for her. It was after almost a decade of Christian life and ministry when she was introduced to pain and perplexity. God met her and moved her when life broke.
 Hagerty weaves in and out (not necessarily sequentially) stories of her conversion and teen years, dating years, infertility, adoption, early years of marriage, husband's business failure, and family health issues. The overall message is that all the tough times end up teaching her major lessons about herself and God.

my review

I rarely have such mixed feelings about a book. Normally I can tell you that I either liked it, or I hated it and I can tell you why. I really want to work on my faith. I understand that by faith I am-am more Danielle Laporte than Billy Gram. I mean I can read Pema Chadron and be all like omg she is BRILLIANT! But I read something like this book and there is SOMETHING that I have resorted to calling the holier than thou asshole test. This is where people tray and sound how the Lord had helped them but in doing so they make people like me who I will fully admit to being broken sinners feel like assholes.

For example, when I read someone like Pema Chadron I can relate to her and I feel like I am on the right path and that I am on the brink of an awaking. I feel good and I want to do good and I want all humankind to feel peace and joy and communion with our creator or the source as it is called in some circles. To me, the Creator IS the source so.

I read Something like Every Bitter Thing Is Sweet and I read about how to agreed to Give her life to the Lord at 16 and followed all the rules I feel like and asshole because at 16 I was battling drug addiction  and a mental illness and my single mother was trying to keep my ass out of Juvenile. (I am a productive member of society nowadays and I have never been in an adult jail so therapy  and medication really do work). I  feel like scum because of all I put my mom through. And that makes me not like the book.

To be fair, the writing is beautiful. It is an internal journey of a woman getting to the core of communion with God. It tells the story of how God peeled back layers and layers til what was left was a precious diamond that reflects God. I LOVED the language and how she described her internal journey. and yet…

I felt worse and worse. Like I wasn’t good enough. Like maybe I was unsavable which I know is not true. God has blessed me with a life beyond my wildest dreams and I now try and follow him, but I KNOW I am still broken in a fallen world and I will never reach the heights of holiness that this author talks about. I could feel the anger in me that all she lacked was getting pregnant. That is all she couldn’t get pregnant. I wanted to tell her to try fertility treatment or something. I hate to admit this, but I felt as if her problem was really not all that big a deal. I know couples who deal with this will disagree with me, but I somehow feel that that people who have suffered withdrawal from drugs and cancer patients and the lack have far more to deal with and so what if you can’t have a kid?

Again my feelings with this book stem from a personal nature. This is a beautiful book to read if you have only faced something of a similar nature. That language is out of this world and it is a beautiful story. So I gave it three stars.

final verdict

 

IT WAS OK

three-stars
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Hillary

About Hillary

I am a book lover who loves to read and write. I only leave my apartment for food and MOAR books. I love to meet new people online so don't be afraid to say hi!