I know I know you are wondering how my going paleo is gonna help me write books and to write for clients. I will tell you. When I follow a strict paleo diet and lifestyle, my anxiety is nil. I mean it is GONE, and I will be the first to tell you that I write so much better without anxiety. I focus way better. I mean I can concentrate now, but when I am taking all my supplements and stuff, i can concentrate for hours. I feel so good. My depression lifts entirely. When I exercise, I feel so good. In general, I feel like a million bucks, and I write like a million bucks. The way you FEEL affects the way you write. I am not here to say that the paleo life is for everyone. It is not but for me, and I have seen a lot of people it works.
I have decided to be transparent about my journey to getting healthy. At the moment I eat crap, and I feel like crap even though I dressed up for the pic and got my mom to take my good side. I weigh 280 pounds. I WAS up to 320 that is a small improvement. I plan to eat a Whole 30 diet and to do some form of exercise every day. I am in the hills of southeastern Ky and would you know there is nota gym within 100 miles of here. I googled that and was like damn. I was not to be defeated, so I went and Got me a Subscription to Beachbody on Demand. That was before I was introduced to the whole wide world of online fitness videos. I was reading some blogs and came across BBG and Blogiliates among others. I honestly had no idea those existed. I prefer an actual gym with an actual personal trainer as I have in My apartment in Cleveland. I need the accountability to show up and do the actual workouts.I have found here at home I am tempted to sit my lazy ass down and WATCH the video, but alas this is the best that I can do here in the mountains. I try hard to complete each video. I do like that Beachbody on Demand has hundreds of programs to choose from so there is that. If for some reason I can get to the gym I will have this as a backup. I want to make sure that I do some form of exercise every single day.
I also need to watch what I eat. I have printed out the whole 30 food list so that I will always know what I can eat. I went on the whole 30 a couple of years a gap and had great success with it, so I know I can do it I just need to put in the effort. I am hoping that being transparent with my struggles and journey that I can maybe encourage someone else going through the same thing
Here is a picture of what I look like now at 270 pounds. I cant find a picture of me at 320 pounds. I think I hid from the camera when I was at that weight. I am hoping to be at least 140 by December of this year. Wish me luck!
That thing around my neck goes to my implant. I was rocking out to Kesha while taking this pic!
So late week I told you I had decided to make a drastic change. I started on my path of losing weight and getting healthy. I am following the 21-day fix, and it is going great so far. I had a couple of slips up but not as bad as I usually do. I credit the shakeology for helping curb my cravings. I lost 5 pounds last week. That is a really good start. I exercised with the 21-day fix on Friday morning, and I was crippled for three days. After three days, i started back, and I can feel myself get stronger after each workout. I finally found my Fitbit so I will be wearing that and instead of smoking breaks I will take walking breaks. I am looking forward to another week of maintaining healthy habits. I feel that this is a diet I can actually live with. You just fill upyour containers and stay on the food list and you are good to go. I went to Au Bon Pain yeserday and I took my containers with me and i mesured out all my food. It was weierd but whatever. My biggest issue is that I dont get enough water. I will work on that this week.
I have made a big decision. I have decided to get healthy. I know I said the same thing a couple years ago, and I almost stuck to it. I lost 85 pounds from January to November then the Holidays came, and I fell off the wagon and got back up to 310 pounds.
I hate being this fat. It is hard to move. I feel like the laziest human ever but you try lugging around 310 pounds of fat, and I bet you would spend a lot of time at rest. I have made halfhearted attempts this year, but my biggest goal was to quit smoking. And I did. I still get cravings, but I have learned to work through them and not give in. I am hoping after a time the cravings will go away. I smoked for 21 years and I am only 35 years old. I guess after smoking for that long it is understandable that my brain would revolt. Every time a bad situation happened, I would stuff my face. So now that I have no desire ever to smoke again. I am focusing on my weight.
I know that some people would think that starting on the Holidays is a dumb idea. I figured my will power right now is tremendous. I am still on a high after quitting smoking, and I am still in the mind frame that I can do anything. So bring on all your candy and shit I am ready to turn them all down. I figure if I can get through THIS holiday season without going off plan then I can make through ANY holiday and still be healthy.
After reading the book Better Than Before I realized that I need outside accountability to keep me on track. So here I am opening up my soul to you on this blog and twitter and somewhat on my personal Facebook account. I joined BeachBody, and I am eating paleo. I have a Beachbody coach who is Paleo, and I am a member of some support groups. I know that this is a lot, but I feel with so many people looking at me to see how my “fancy” shakes are going to work out, I feel even more tied to the program and thus I will lose weight. I know the program works if you follow it, so I have set myself up to succeed in every possible way.
I am typing this up on Friday morning at 8 am and so far I have done my exercise, showered and drank a gallon of water, meditated and journaled. Yes, I read Miracle Morning and today was rough, but now I am feeling all accomplished.
For exercise, I did the 21 days fix cardio thingie on my Roku. It kicked my ass. Halfway through my legs gave out and I had to crawl to the couch and recover. And yes, I was doing the modified version. It had taken a good ten mins before my wobbly legs stopped wobbling. My goal for this round of 21-day fix is to make it through the tape. Baby steps.
I am using myfittnesspal to track everything I eat. I use the containers that beach body sent to measure portion sizes. I almost cried when I saw how small they were. I was like no wonder I am fat I have been using huge portion sizes for everything. It will take some getting used to, but I know I can do it.