I have hinted at my depression this year on the blog, but I did not mention how deep it went. The last three months have been one of the worst depressions I have had since being diagnosed with bipolar. I am on the mend,but recovery isn’t just like pop a pill then you are all better. It is a process. You have to fight your way out of the hell hole that is bipolar depression. Click To Tweet
I have also started therapy again. This time it is in connection with my binge eating disorder. I am still Following Weight Watchers, but I do that online to track my food. I go to therapy once a week where I come up with ways to cope with binge eating. I have also started going to the gym again. I was soo scared going for the first time in almost five months, but I did it, and true to its word Planet Fitness IS a judgment free zone! My trainer welcomed me back. Needless to say, I can’t just run a mile and do an HIIT workout like before. Again I have to build up to it.
Any good therapist will tell you not to just lay around feeling sorry for yourself. In fact, this blog was started because I had just been diagnosed with Bipolar and the therapist suggested that I engage in a hobby to prevent me from just laying on my bed curled up in the fetal piston waiting for the end of time.
I was going over and over in my head how I could ease back into work and stuff. I kept coming back to Tolstoy and the Purple Chair. In this book, the author reads a book a day for a year to grieve for her sister. While a year sounds extreme, I was like I could do that for a month. Then it hit me. Why not read a book a day for a month? That way I could feel like I was doing SOMETHING while still healing from the depths of the darkness I found myself in. So I came up with an idea and a plan for next month. This is the routine that I will follow every day, except Sundays when I go to church.
- Get up
- Get caffeinated
- Hit the gym
- Come home shower
- Put on work PJ ( I am still in the can hardly leave my apt phase)
- Morning Pages
- Write some blog posts
- Read a book
Also, I will go to ALL therapy and Drs appointments. No rescheduling or canceling like I tend to do.
This routine will help me ease back into my old routine. I am BETTER but not completely well yet. I feel that is I follow this it will help me get all the way better so that I can come back strong!
I just want to let people know that if you are suffering from bipolar or depression that you are not alone and the sickness won’t last forever. There is hope.I just want to let people know that if you are suffering from bipolar or depression that you are not alone and the sickness won’t last forever. There is hope. There is always Hope!Click To Tweet