Last week was NOT a good week. Reading or other wise. It started when my glasses broke. My neighbor sorta duct taped them together so I could see to read and write. Then my tooth started hurting. I went to the dentist and found out that because I did not go back for the crown to put on my root canal my tooth cracked. I thought the dentist wanted me to come back to get my teeth cleaned but they were so rude I was like hahahahah yeah right. So I never went back. So now I have a cracked tooth. I told the dentist to just to pull it but he refused. I was all like I know you pull teeth, I saw someone in the lobby with all his teeth pulled out. The dentist was like 1) your tooth is not rotten and 2) you have insurance that covers the necessary procedure. I was like fine then next year maybe I will not get dental insurance. It is the very last tooth in the back, it not like anyone gonna know if it is not there or not but alas. I have a root canal scheduled for Thursday. Then I went to the eye Dr and the darn Dr was sick so I had to make another appointment for this coming Wednesday. I think I want contacts again. I haven’t had them for 4 years after I scratched my cornea and I was terrified of becoming Deaf and Blind, but now I think I am ready to try again. THEN there is the issue of my whole bipolar medicine change. The Dr was like ohhhh new drug! It will help depression, anxiety and you will feel good and balh blah blah. Like a dummy I fell for it. I was doing perfectly fine on the old med but you know me I am an early adopter type so anything with new and improved I am going for it. It has been less than stellar I must admit. I finally gave up and admitted that the low dosages they started me on was not helping so I called and made an appointment and got in to see the DR. They increased my dosage so I am hoping that this week I will start to feel like my old pollyannish self again. This doom and gloom does not suit me.
It was really hard to focus with the depression hanging over me like a dark cloud. I picked books up and put them down. I did this multiple times. I was really getting frustrated. Yesterday I was like screw my reading schedule. So I got a book called CULTS THAT KILL off my bookshelf and started reading. Now, when I bought the book at a used bookstore I had THOUGHT it was about the dude with the kool-aid in South America and his ilk. I started reading and lo and behold, do you know what it is really about? Satanism. That will teach me to read the book jacket more carefully. Anyway I started reading and it held my attention. It was like a train wreck. It hurts to read but you cant look away. I got halfway through before my sleeping pill kicked in and I fell asleep. My dreams were not pleasant but what do you expect on a book on the Occult? My attention is still being held this morning so I guess I will spend today reading that. Between that and my demon book I read last year courtesy of a friend I am sure to have nightmares for days.
I am praying that this will be a better week overall. Both reading and depression wise. I hope everyone has a good week!
When it rains, it pours, eh? Here’s hoping upping your dosage of this new medicine will work and have you feeling better in no time. It sounds like you could definitely use a break.
Good luck and try to have a good week!