I have finally admitted it to myself… I am depressed. I saw my Shrink last week, and she upped some of my meds, so we shall see if that works. I have been reading but just not writing much. My day looks like this..get up… get caffeinated….read some RSS feeds but feel like I have nothing to contribute..take a shower and settle in with a book. Yeah, not much going on there. I agreed to some therapy, but I honestly have no idea what I shall talk about. Ohhhh I have my dream life, and I feel like this is all there is.. Hmmm
Have any of y’all got a subscription to the Bookriot thingie. The epic level is sold out, but I have my eye on the new release calendar. I wonder if that alone is worth the money. Like finally there is a way to see what books are coming out when. I was usually so confused keeping up with book release dates but from what I saw from the demo that would be perfect for me.
I have been putting a lot of effort into my audio training. I have been listening to a LOT of podcasts. I am working on a post of what I listen to soon. I shall defeat evil robot man the next time I got to the audiologist.
I started using Asana as an editorial calendar. I am finding that I like it. I can move topics around to suit my needs without having to write and rewrite them.
I can’t believe that it is June already! The first half of the year has not been my best but am determined to make the rest of the year shine. Need to get through this depression first though.
I have started going to church again. I went like one time n the first half of the year. Many people have urged me to go back to church so last week I went. I am glad that I have gone back. FerVent made me think, and I am reading a Christian productivity book What’s Best Next that is a gold mine of information. I hadn’t thought of being productive could be viewed in religious terms. The book made me reflect and take a LOT of notes. One thing that it said was what we do for a job here we will do for eternity. SO I guess I am gonna spend eternity typing up book reviews. #Kiddingnotkidding In all seriousness both books together has made me reevaluate the way I approach things. I will have a review up with more thoughts on What’s Best Next later this week, and FerVent review is right here.
My book of the month book arrived! This month I picked White Fur as it was getting rave reviews.I can’t wait to dive in. If you haven’t tried Book Of the Month club, I suggest you give it a try.I have been very satisfied with their service so far. I will be writing up on THAT soon also.
I have a lot of plans for writing, but I find it hard to get started. Depression is an insidious illness. It paralyzes you with fear and dread so that you are left sitting there thinking what you have to say is pure and utter shit. It is hard to get over that hump every single morning. I have managed it twice this week, and I am going for every day this week. Can’t let the darkness win.
After Church, I plan just to sit and read. If it is warm enough outside I will sit on my balcony and read. I am in the middle of the Zombie Survival Guide, and I love it so far. I have this morbid fascination with zombies. I have always said that if the dead were to rise, I would be one of the first one’s bit cause I will be trying to Instagram the whole thing.
